oh yay. finally i'm blogging.

recently, lots of stuffs happened. but well, i've learnt to take things positively. even though i may feel unfair at times, but this is sure life. hell yeah. there's lots of stuffs beyond out control. just like how helpless we are when people hurt us. yeah. what can we do? well, i used to think that maybe, maybe we can turn to a friend or something like that. but i'm wrong i guess. fact is, they can be the ones pushing you down the cliff. and that's what i've been through. yeah. you never know what people can do. no matter how innocent they may look, they may be devils. and i'm serious. but anyway, just felt a little sad for myself. maybe i'm just too ... too simple minded? i actually thought that i could believe someone again. ignoring the awful comments, being close and nice. but what do i get in the end? a whole sea of bullshit. fake, negative comments about me. i wanted to ignore them. i really wanted to. but sometimes, it's really hard to swallow everything down. fortunately, i'm starting school soon. less than two months time, i'll know new people? new environment and all. fresh fresh start for everything. let's just hope everything goes really well this time round. no more assholes in my life.

i need to work out more. more. and i mean more!
for now, i think what i need is sleep. ha.