i'm going out to ball! haha.

hello! it's saturday morning. and i just got home. last night was out with aloysius, xuan and st. we went for dinner and movies. (= we watched the Made of Honor which i think is a really sweet show. after the movies there's this indian woman who scolded me a bitch in the lift for stepping on her foot. thr itrony is that, xuan asked me to relax and then she and aloy went up to irritate the woman back. that's super amusing. well then st and i headed back when i saw my sec school friend at the train station and we boarded the same train. LOL. by the time st and i reached yishun was about 12 plus. after that we walked around yishun and got ourselves a couple of drinks and we talked till about just now. four plus till i got home. wow. we're super talkative yea. we're screened by the police when they have nothing better to do. well, what can they say. ha. i miss my mm super alot. chang jianming, i miss you, ya know? you're so deaf, i told you i will message you! ROAR. anyway. i'm gonna meet st at seven in the morning cause we're heading towards kembangan to ball in the morning. haha. not too sure if i still have the strength to ball. LOL. but still, i feel like balling so so much! yeah! and i can't wait to see mm though he's only booking out in the evening and i only can meet him at around seven plus. arghh~ we cannot go anywhere yea. it's already so so late. plus he gonna book in on sunday! i'm so sad! i wanna meet him longer! roar! we're already together for a year already. i'm so so happy! time flies! it's so fast. but i just wanna treasure my baby so much. happy anniversary!

just ended phone call with my baby. i'm in a better mood now. yeah. tomorrow i'm gonna meet him, and i'm happy. though we're meeting quite late. but still, i'm glad that we're gonna meet up!

went to school this morning though i'm not feeling too well. dranks loads of water but haven't eat anything yet. HUNGRY! and now the pig is here! we're heading out later!

and anyway, it's past twelve. it's our first year anniversary.
happy anniversary to you and me. loves.

haven't been feeling too well this few days.. the temperature just goes up and down. throat's abit pain. but i stil insisted in eating Mos Burger just now. =p studied at Bishan Mos with Gaps and Albert. i'm feeling abit giddy most of the time, made it so hard for me to concentrate. plus the heat i feel in me.. kinda unbearable. but well, we still stayed there for hours yo. gaps helped me with math. THANKS! tomorrow still got to go to school. i'm not really sure if i will be going or if i can concentrate. i don't feel very well. i've been drinking alot of water. maybe that's why it's still not too serious. but most probably i'll be going to school, don't wanna miss lessons. tragic. i've been so good recently. but life sucks anyway for me. i feel like a water tank.

it's the end of my madness.. finally i've came back to the harsh grounds of reality. i still feel rather sad. though i chose to avoid this fact. disappointments - i'm feeling them, though they can't be helped. i know it's not your fault. but still, can you say some things to make me feel slightly better? can you at least show that you're kind of unhappy too? i mean, not being able to meet me earlier isn't a great deal to you? i don't know. sometimes you just make me feel so. i hope after all that talking, it does make some impact to you. i don't know. maybe it's just the emptiness that i'm feeling inside. you're sometimes so far away. not only in physical distance. give me the strength to move on. i need the strength. sometimes, i just feel like i'm the only one trying hard. i'm trying to give my fullest. i'm not someone who tear often. not someone to mention my feelings often. i may look like i'm okay, but there are times which i wanna just scream out loud that i'm not okay. i'm not okay. but i just couldn't bear to spoil someone's day. anyone. seeing people smile is great. especially yours. i hope you think like me too. maybe you do. you just don't show it. maybe not showing it is bad at times. i don't know what i'm thinking. i don't think that i'm thinking right this very moment. perhaps i'm letting all the emotions flow. after i've vent it all out i should be fine. but now, i think i'm drowning in them. i'm dying..

went to town today with bestie. met julia and all for awhile. then walked with bestie. bought the birthday present for XUAN. the birthday girl! i love you babe! (=

got back home.. expecting MM's phone call. yeah. we talked for 15mins. but got a bad news that saturday he may be coming out only in the evening. and there goes our plans. i've planned to ball with PP at kembangan that morning before fetching him. well.. i can go home after that then.. it's not his fault, of cause i know. but i'm just feeling kinda sad for that's our first year. yeah. but nevermind lar. i still can see him though. i missed him.

tomorrow gonna study with gaps at bishan. but i've got no mood to study though. ROAR. can't do. i need to work hard.. yeah. MUG HARD. like what baby said, study hard now.. so i have more time for him during his week leave.. hmmm... jiayou ba..

*mood now's abit low.

the album is finally completed ! but i haven't touched my maths work yet. so dead ah! i ate ice-cream just now. i'm so happy! (= recently i wanted to cut down some weight. but when i see MM gain weight, i don't feel like cutting down already. LOL. we look alright standing together now. yeah baby! i feel good!

hello hello. now i'm here, blogging while feeling quite weak. been having headaches and temperature's slightly higher than normal. no mood to do any work lar. i feel so cold now lar~ and yea, gaps and all went to watch ironman just now, told them it wasn't too nice le ah. LOL. i'm so lazy to even prepare anything for school tomorrow~i'm feeling so warm within. ROAR.

my album's 3/4 done. (: should be able to get it completed by saturday. yeah. anyway, if baby came to my blog, he would have know that i'm making him an album. but well, i knew he wouldn't bother to visit here. ha.. is it even a good thing in the first place. whatever the case, i'm looking forward to the weekends. (:

finally got home and i'm so super tired. having headaches.. arghh~ didn't go with Gaps in the end. we initially wanted to go for movies ah. ha. but i'm kinda tempted to ball just now lar.. today, i didn't pon any lesson. i'm so proud of myself ah! ha. and the stupid aloysius is trying to draw the maths teacher's attention lar. sitting beside him is dangerous! haha. and the stupid lecture hall was super super cold in the morning. freezing to death man. and when we have the econs lecture in the afternoon, it's super hot! ha. but Lim-Seng is super funny. her reactions. LOL. but it's kinda fun though. econs. (: and anyway xuan's birthday's coming.. still unsure of what to get for her!! haha. i still have my album not completed! haha. gonna continue later on.

i'm missing my baby boy, didn't have the time to talk to him just now in the morning.. was having lesson.. so sad ah! out-field again.. hope he takes good care of himself. and he's super cute can. ' i will be back soon =) ' ---- that's what he sent me. Lovely isn't it?

A woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on, not from his head to be superior over, but from his side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected and next to the heart to be loved.



kinda meaningful isn't it?

baby's back to his camp. and he's only coming out on saturday, the day after our first year. well, it can't be helped anyway. but we're meeting on saturday. he's throwing grenade on saturday. i hope everything can go smoothly for him. he's going for a mini out-field camp till wednesday. i'm gonna be bored again. can't hear from him for three days. my baby's not feeling well today.. hope he can recover soon.. hmmm.. i'm just kinda worried though. but baby, i'm so proud of you. with the 2.4 timing less than 9 min. *claps for you* though i keep on mocking you ah, but deep down i'm so proud of you! (= you're the man.

anyway, there's school tomorrow. sucks ah. i haven't study for my maths test. and i'm afraid that i may not be able to get up tomorrow morning. yawns! and the album i'm making for MM is still under construction!! i'm so dead. though i have another day to complete it.. ha.. we're going out on the saturday.. but where to eh.. haha. i just wanna see him! it's BMT's ending on the 11th. happy for him ah. but by that time i'll have to chiong for blocks le ah. zzz. life sucks lar. but but, i just wanna treasure the time with you. but in the process, i need to study too. my aim is to pass all the subjects in the blocks! and all the best all my friends. we'll all survive through this year. but like super tragic, when i see all my friends complete their As and i'm still sloggin like shit. sighs. my aim is to just get into a decent local Uni. maybe NTU? to join my dear boy. though my initial aim is NUS.. alright. now i should just work hard. haha. to give myself more choices after As. yeah. trying hard to force myself to study hard. gonna start mugging! still considering whether to go mug tomorrow after school... should i ?

i'm so happy! i finally changed a skin. though it doesn't look too diferent from the previous one. but anyway, i've change my blog song too. i love my previous song, but i couldn't get it loaded fast cause of the player. it's kinda irritating. haha. so i decided to change into this song. my favourite now. (:

my baby's still sleeping. i love to see him around.

Should i change my blog skin??!!!

baby's heading back to camp later on. he's sleeping now!! (:

i love to see him. around me.

i feel like changing blog skin. but i couldn't find a one that i like!

it's a saturday morning. and it's a great morning. to wake up seeing him. (: my baby gained some weight. yeah. not as skinny as before. wahaha! anyway. we're gonna ball later on with the rest. my baby is now harassing lucky, touching his chest! LOL.

MY BOY BOY IS COMING OUT TOMORROW! (= i missed him so so so so much! it's super good news for me! but tomorrow i still have GP paper. and history lesson after that. but but! i wanna meet him so so much! haha! i'm excited! (= i hope tomorrow's sun will set soon. haha.

i'm early today, to blog in the afternoon. well, i didn't go to school today. and i'm feeling so energetic now. woke up at around say 12? LOL. seen the doctor. gonna continue with my album for my baby. LOVE HIM! he just called me ah. talked for awhile. so happy to hear from him. but a sad thing is that he wouldn't be able to come ot on friday next week. we couldn't spend our first year together.. well. i guess there's no choice lar. nevermind that then. as long as i have him. (:

today was so slack in school. LOL. tried so hard not to fall asleep. ha. today's the FRIED FOOD day. so happy that i ate 2 meals in school today. haha. after school i've went to chongpang with my pig. develop photos! haha. and then after that went to meet martin and gaps at the station. and we headed to city hall. (= walked around. crapped and bitched around. got earrings at a bargain! =D well, then Julia couldn't get her desired Ipod case. i also wanna get a case! but not so soon i guess. haha. i've got to save up already. spent like over 60 bucks today. yawns. i'm so broke! haha. anyway. i'm quite sad to hear that baby can only book out on saturday noon. tragic. but it sure meant that i would be going for my extra lessons. 8-9.30 history, 9.30-12 econs. gonna die already. oh yeah. i passed my first international SBQ. such a miracle. and and i passed GP paper 1. happy yo! haha. but TRAGIC ah. it's another three more days to seeing my baby. i wanna see my baby so badly! haha. I MISS HIM!!

HELLO. i'm talking to my baby now. it's super late. already past one o'clock. i miss my baby alot alot!! i hope to see you soon baby! few more days only... FASTER!

just ended a phone call with my baby. i missed him so. another four days. it seem faster now. getting used to waiting.. but well.. when i see him.. it's all worth the wait. now i'm starting to think what should we do next friday. our first year. he could be too tired to do anything. i wanted to go to the beach la. LOL. random eh. just wanna spend the time with him somewhere peaceful. but most probably the peaceful place may be at home. LOL. but well.. it's not the location that matters i think.. it's who you're with.. and i just wanna be with him...

You call it madness, but I call it love.

today's a monday. baby's back to camp. i'm already missing him. we spent the friday saturday sunday and today together. i really treasured the time spent together. friday i fetched my baby. saturday we went to ball. sunday we went out for movie, titled: Sweet Rain: Shinigami no seido aka Accuracy Of Death. it's very nice. at least to me. quite meaningful. makes people treasure life more than ever. i like the song 'Sunny day' in the show too. Sunny Day by Manami Konish. it's quite nice. maybe after i watched the show lar. ha. we spent the night with my family too. they're important too. yeah. and this morning. we went to cck at 8 in the morning. to ball with his army mates. didn't play much with them though. and baby injured his ankle. tragic. i'm worried ! don't overstrain yourself in camp baby. friday will come soon. then i'll see you again. i'll go fetch you. (: another two weeks baby. i'm waiting~ but the tragic part is that i haven't done any school work nor revised on anything yet. got to do some later. tomorrow's the longest day. hope i get it over and done with soon! and i wanna just say sorry to all my friends if i've neglected them in anyway cause of my boy. i don't mean to. yeah. alright. got to go out for dinner...

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to take over the whole bed. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations. If you don't get enough sleep, you are: In a very bad mood It's hard to sleep next to you because: You hog the covers.

MM's sleeping postion!

hello hello blog! i'm happy today. though i haven't studied for both of my tests tomorrow. today didn't walk much. leg's too pain. did some work at home. (: tomorrow's the big day. i'm seeing my dear. though we had some quarrels just now, but it's cause i wanna see you more. darling, i really miss you. i'll go fetch you tomorrow! i can't wait! baby baby. i miss you!

today. it's the most slack day of all. well, only had history lecture and tutorial. and we went for cross country. it's super scary. you get to see the ruthless nature of human beings. they push, squeeze for their own benefits. But there are nice people though. I didn't complete the run, it was a pity. but i couldn't complete it. my ankles gave way. i couldn't run straight. i stopped. but i realised there are many many nice people around. this is the first time i realised that i have friends that are really supportive. Gaps, she didn't complete her run cause of me. my classmates are all worried about me. ST and GAPS accompanied me to the doctor. through the TOUGH times, they're there with me, and i'm really thankful for all that they had done for me. yeah. and GAPS, thanks for the green tea. i love you. we had loads of fun at the clinic. it's super pain. but super funny. NOW, then i know my legs are so serious. i got my knee , ankle , nerves , shoulder , wrist. so fierce la. the sounds of my bones cracking is so loud. ST is super freaked out by the sound. but i quite not bad la, i never scream at all. i kept on laughing. but now, my ankle's swollen and it's so numb. haha. if it's ST, she will spoil the equipments. but well, i may return for treatment next week. it's not complete yet. ha. anyway. i'm not haeding to school tomorrow. my ankles falling apart. now it's like pig's trotter. oh ya! my MM called me! LOVE HIM. i'm gonna see him on friday! lovely. i wanna see him so much.

Today, during econs class was super funny lar. Gaps and i were now listening at all. but we're having fun though. LOL. i prefer the econs class than any other. haha. get to mock the teacher. LOL. YES OR NO~!! i'm abit crazy!!!

Did so many of the tests. some are quite true i should say. and, i cannot date my own sign of people-- the cancer. haha. I MISS MY BABY! tomorrow's the cross country. i'm so lazy to run!! and the route back is so troublesome. so so so so far. THREE more days! it's over twelve o'clock. so it's just TWO days. LOL. i miss him!!

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

He's a Great Boyfriend

You guy definitely loves you and knows how to treat you right. You have a five star boyfriend - so make sure you treat him right too!

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

He Loves You For You

When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices It's nothing to do with the way you look... He's just has really fallen for you But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

What Your Little Black Dress Says About You

You are chic, worldly, and charming. You naturally fascinating and popular. You never feel like pretending to be someone you're not. Your style is simple, flattering, and always appropriate. You fill your closet with well quality, timeless items. If you were a shoe, you would be: Open toed heels

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Never Date a Cancer

Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches. And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return. Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

You Are Ready to Get Married

You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

Your Kissing Grade: A

You are truly an amazing kisser. Your kisses are extraordinarily mind blowing. Whether you're naturally a good kisser or not, you've taken the time learn how to be the best kisser possible. Anyone would be lucky to get a kiss from you!

YJCians. (=