it's just the best solution to everything. it's impossible. we'll still be friends. that's for sure. I really want ya to understand. you's still young, there's still a long way. you may meet better people. I may be cruel. but i don't want it to drag on. i really don't wanna hurt you more. enough is enough. perhaps it's outta my control. but i still don't want you to be sad. look foward. i believe you can do it. concentrate on the things which are much more important. please don't leave any regrets in your life. i'm really sorry. sorry for all the misery that i've caused. i'm seriously sorry. maybe, just not seeing me will make you feel better? i don't know. but that's for my case. i feel stressed. i'm afraid. and i don't know what i am thinking. i just suppose this is what's best for us. i want you to push through this complicating situation. you still have your life. you still have lots of people who loves and care about you. be mature. love yourself. but whatever the case. i still wish you all da best. and i'll forever be here for you as a friend. so please. promise me to move out of this. -after the rain, the sun will always shine. i'll be watching you. so please. be happy. the last thing i wanna do will be making you sad. i don't wanna do it. so don't do it yourself. move on.

now. it's the real start of school. well. it's thursday and i feel like i'm dying. so tired. every single day. didn't do much work. but still freaking tired. i wanna die. zzz. feel so damn sleepy ah..

i should make some changes to my life. yeah?

i'm rotting.. rot rot..

i'm freaking sick of life la..

what should i do? I really treasure YOU as a friend. that's for sure. BUT, i don't want you to be sad. I don't wanna hurt ya, do you understand? there's really something very wrong goin on between US. really. The testimonial you wrote for me. i'm really shocked. you're being so direct? i have a dozen of questions for myself too. and i don't have the answer. what should i do. There's a load of differences between us.

Basketball. bores me at times? kinda sick of goin for training so many times a week. so sick. so sian. i hate life. how i wish i could be the irresponsible one. who i wish i can just pon trainings. duhz. if not for the responsibilities. i could have quitted. long ago.

Well, something happy. to mention. CAREER high. 32 points against tpjc. so happy ah. =) thanks for coming to watch eh. my girlfriend and my bao bei. lovesss!