THIRD MONTH!
a few more minutes to our third month.
so excited. i hope ya remember my dear. (:
we're gonna catch a movie tomorrow!
tomorrow must jia you for your maths paper eh!
prepared so much le. hmmm.
tomorrow i'm finishing school at 2.10.
wahaha. wanna see ya asap! missing you!
this afternoon was so excited when you called!
so happy to hear your voice! (:
and just now went to woodlands to ball.
quite fun. (: didn't get myself injured either.
adeline asked me to ball on friday.
thinking.. haha.. must see my dear. haha
i'm so excited. tomorrow! i can see you le!
after school call me eh. hmm.. i have break from 11.40 to 1.10.
so can call me in between that time k? (:
i scare i can't reach you. hmm. so please call eh.
miss ya so much!
it's coming! THIRD MONTH!
LOVES!

it's another school day again.
having some cramps again. ahhh.
anyway, we had the AQ test in the morning.
it's only a timed practice. so lame.
well well. the teacher's quite irritating.
don't know her name though.
ha. today's a wednesday. equating to a slacking day.
QJJ ask me to go pastamania later. thinking whether should i go not.
AST say later we're balling. which means that i may be going to the same place twice.
kinda lame yea? haha.
so i'm thinking. hmm hmm.
tomorrow's thursday~ a special day.
and i'm meeting him! wahaha!
MOVIE! (:
but for now. mug hard for your papers yea.
FRIDAY. we can go off at 1.
and QJJ planned a movie followed by steamboat.
wahaha. expecting friday too.
and later on i still have chinese lesson and econs lecture.
boring~ oh ya. today's a training day.

back home finally. (:
studied just now.
so proud of myself.
haha.
sop just told me that thursday we had to hand in the maths file.
i'm so dead. got to go dig out all the assignments.
ahhhh~ so lazy lar! hate maths!
hmm hmm. felt like going out for a run.
but stomach abit pain again. ahhh~
suan le ba~! :p
anyway, i'm gonna watch series again. lala~
dear slacking now too wor. LOL.
got to get back to studies later on yea!
misses!

ended up goin woodlands to ball yesterday.
felt so guilty not going school today.
had stomach cramps in the morning. ):
well well. much better now!
going to study with st soon! (:
got to make up for the missed lessons.
yea yea. FIGHT-O!
my baby's studying hard. so must i!
i miss my dear boy!
mug hard hard for your prelims!
super happy to see ya yesterday!
THURSDAY! loves!

baby baby. i miss you! think i'm going to bed soon.
got to wake up extra early to study for test.
guess you're in lala land now. ha.
jia you jia you tomorrow~! (:
miss you baby!

baby baby! so sad that i couldn't get to see you online.
reporting my status to you now.
well well.. today went to causeway to eat and study a lil with st.
then we met eric and we went to ball.
till around 9 plus.
and ate dinner. reached home at 11. (:
and i didn't get injured!
oh ya oh ya. i'm alone home for tonight. really alone.
not even lucky's home. ahhh~
wish ya here! (: guess i'll see you in dreamland! haha. :P
hmmm hmmm. and all the best for your papers alright.
guess you're either studying or sleeping already.
work hard eh! giving you all my support!
anyway, felt so happy today. played ball for quite long.
and i feel like going out for a run.
not as in really run lar.. jog jog. (:
and yeah, really very happy to hear from you.
really really.. i'm missing you like crazy.
and i'll be waiting for your call tomorrow yea~
loves loves!
oh ya. i may be going gombak to ball.
don't need to be too bothered with that lar.
if you want can come find me lar.
if busy studying then nevermind yea.
(: i'll be having dinner in gombak ba.
so if you want can meet me for dinner.
but if you're too tired then nevermind de! really really! (:
i'll be just happy enough to be closer to you. ha.
it's not complusory to come down ah. really ah!
if you got the time then come.
haha. i got st's company anyway.
we may not be balling also lar.
maybe we studying only. (:
overall, i'm quite a good girl when you're not around.
positive influence. wahaha.
ok lar. i don't think i going out for a run liao.
later you worry again. wahaha.
i'm such a good girl today.
so when you see me must reward me.
LOL. waiting for thursday.
thursday's a special day..
:D hope you remember yea.
loves loves! love you loads loads!

still at st's house.
leavin her house soon. hmm.
we're going to study.
then ball a little.
it's been so so long..
since i last worked out a little.
i'm missin my boy like crazy.
wonder how are you now..
eaten? studying?
or what happened last night..
questions questions.. with no answers..
get back to me fast alright.
hmm hmm.
mug hard mug hard.
i'll be here to give you my support. (:

here in am. in st's house.
with baobei.
baobei's feeling emo. ha. drinking again.
we're trying to keep her safe. LOL.
well.. we all got ourselves some drinks.
gotta have fun. ha.
anyway, st's gonna cook us some noodles later on!
i'm missin my dear boy.
mug hard alright my dear.
though i'm kinda worried...
try to contact me eh.. at least let me know what's going on..
study study hard! waiting for thursday!
st suggested to go out to study tomorrow. then study.
think we're gonna do so.
so i'm telling you dear. if you're reading. (:
and please know that your girl's missing you loads. loads.
try to contact me as soon as possible alright.
study hard. ha..
guess you're sleeping now.. missing you like mad!
miss the times when i see ya sleeping. (:
alright alright. we're gonna cook some noodles.
loves loves! cya!

blog song changed!

> Life.
>>by Desree

(: i love this song!

pictures!

pictures!

today slept till like 11 plus. wahaha.
so hyper now! haha.
just came back from northpoint. went out for lunch.
we ate teppanyaki! (:
and bubble tea! wahaha.
so fattening yea. :P
got to cut down! haha. ST ask me out to ball.
should i go? didn't join them for the past two days already.
but but.. i wanna pei him study! prelims!!
aim for today for myself, i wanna complete the history essay outline.
wanna do revision for econs too.
there's a test on monday! got to mug hard!

anyway. i love my new blog skin! (:
feel like changing the blog song too! LOL.
should i ....? haha..

skin changed! :D

i'm so tempted to change a new blog skin.
but i still like this skin though..
should i? lol.

Morning Morning! it's a beautiful friday morning! :D
another morning which i lazed on the bed till almost seven.
had PE lessons in the morning. yeah. inter-class games.
too bad we didn't get to play with siow thien's class. i also don't know why.
but well, overall it was quite fun. first time that i feel that the class's together.
those playing tried their best,
those not playing gave us their utmost support by cheering.
such a pity that our sophie is still sick. and she can't join us in the games.
well. for a all girls team, we're considered not bad already. at least we won some games.
but for the bad side, there were guys who are so .. so.. how do i call it.. erm.. rough?
not exactly, probably just not gentlemen.
but well, who cares. we had fun. (:
really happy to see the class united. - for once.
for everyone who participated. GOOD JOB for the effort.
THANKS for our loyal 136 cheerleaders too! :D
GoGoGo 136!!

hmm. hmm. they're in lesson now. :p
two hours of GP after PE will kill me straight lor.
plus the school now implemented a new policy.
-on fridays, air-con will only be on after 11. with the exceptions of LTs.
oh my, and they expect us to bear with the stuff classrooms.
especially after PE. it's a NO-NO for me. (:
can't study under that condition too.

oh yeah, speaking about studying..
yesterday me and my boy studied! (:
for me it's like three hour plus of mugging and for him, more.
ha. but it's worth it. to sacrifice my ball time for studying.
anyway i've got to prepare for promos, so.. yeah.
today the rest's going to ball again. and for me, studying again.
true enough, i'm so tempted to join the rest. but well, i know my priorities.
so just 加油！
promos's coming!! so as your prelims my dear boy.
and a piece of good news! the history test that i've expected to fail.. i passed!
such a miracle. i was praying not to get a single digit.
though it's not a very good pass ah.. but i'm still happy.
got to aim to score well for promos.
this time, i'm really serious!
later on i'm gonna do my econs stuffs.
and in the afternoon i'm doing history work.
加油！ 加油！
and i miss you baby. 我好想你！
gonna see ya later on! happy!
wahaha. you have new video and photos with me. wahaha.
should i upload them....? :p

today today. woke up at 6.50! haha.
so lazy to wake up. i miss my bed.
i'm in library with st. ha
she skipped her 1 & 1/2 hour chinese, and i skipped maths.
intend to skip econs lecture later on too.
gonna start to study.
later i'm meeting my boy at 3.15!
we're gonna study! (:
why can't those 'adults' understand their children.
why can't they just put their pride aside and listen to what their children have to say.
it doesn't make sense.
adults don't have to apologise when they commit mistakes?
it doesn't matter how old you are.

today's supposed to be a training day.
well, not gonna go for training.
was talking with st and gaps just now.
i'm really glad to have friends who understands me.
it's really not that i want the post so much,
it's the awkward stance that i'm worried about.
and i really don't have much motivation to come for training anymore.
there's really not much stuffs to hold me back.
but i can't deny that the passion's still there. always.
today, joyce and shiyun's coming back for our training. true enough, i miss them~
but i don't wanna be there, in a awkward situation.
yeah. i hope you peeps understand my position too.
so long so long, since i last played ball.
i wanna go for a run. i wanna sweat my heart out. let it all out.
i really wanna vent all my anger.
okay lar. not really anger in that sense. just the feelings broiled. the stress.
ahhhh..
why didn't you return my calls.. i'm waiting..
don't wanna think too much for now..
maybe you forgot to bring your phone?
ahhhh.. don't know ah! just reply me! fast!
ten more minutes. and i'm on my way home.
got to go pick up some dog food.
(: ha. and i miss my doggie.

didn't go to school today.
and i met you.
talked about plenty of stuffs today.
din't have a conclusion though.
and i just can seem to let go of stuffs.
things just bother me.
fucking hate some people.
those brainless folks.
i just can't let it slide.
the humiliation. the damage. is far more.
i wish i could let them go.
but fact is, it's almost impossible.
i have my principles and my pride.
i am also an human being.
i have my emotions.
what can i do. tell me.
would you take my pain away.
heal my broken heart.

after that night of talk, i've been thinking alot..
tormenting me in many ways.
when will this thing get settled.
or is it even possible.
ha. your perfect family.
i'm feeling so disgusted for their actions.
feel so sick when i think of them.
but i still want you my dear.
i wonder how long more can i take..
sometimes, it really make me wanna let you go..
maybe you can move on better without me.
lesser trouble. lesser burden. lesser stress.
how long more will this drag on..
the smile on your face keeps me going.
even though the journey's no easy way to go.
there's no way back. no turning back..
fight on. like you've said.
cause baby i will wait for you.
i don't know why, but i'm getting more and more emo each day.
each time i think of the future of us.
the problems which awaits us.
it puts me down.
if leaving you will do you good, i will be more than willing to let go.
possession isn't everything.
we should talk.

stop buggin us. seriously. leave us alone.
felt real good to say things in your face.
who give a shit to you.
ahhhh~ *roars*
but i understand. it won't feel good to be sandwiched.
i'm sorry. but i just can't help it.
crazy people say nonsensical stuffs.
when will they understand that that you're no longer a baby.
run run run, run away...
the question for your better good still ponders, what should i do.
maybe i should have just let you be free..
cause there'll be no ending to these shit.
when can they understand ?
when will you be free.
i'll always be there, waiting for you.

it's thursday morning again. once again, i'm supposed to be in the auditorium now for econs lecture. seems like i have no mood for anything. everyone's asking why. but i don't know exactly why deep down. maybe there's still bits and bits of uncertainty over the basketball question. i've been away from training for about a month. oh yea, by the way, it's a great thing that i finally can give away this post as a captain. a load off. but fact is, i'm no listener. it may sound bad and all. but i'm not used to it i guess. it seems pretty weird for me. awkward too. probably that's what that upset me. well, it wasn't a nice post to be in and i guess, being in that position, ya won't get much appreciation for your effort. everyone would just think that it is a rightful thing to do. and now, i should be happy. to pass on this burden of mine. ha. but no matter who may become the next captain, i won't come for trainings anymore. have no will and motivation for that. now i realise that i miss the past year teams. the 2006 and 2007 batch. maybe some of them will understand me. bball now seem like a burden to me. deep in, i love the sport. but the sight of the depressing state of the team saddens me each time. maybe i should have left YJ. remaining here for bball now seem very dumb. but well, i have my worries too, my injury is draggin me down to a pathetic state that even a day of PE can cause overnight pains. i shall listen to whoever that's concerned. i will leave balling for at least some time. how long? i don't know. or maybe for good. i'm uncertain. to quit or not. but i wanna play. but not with the present state of the team. and god knows who wil become the next captain. but yea. who cares. i'm feeling so mixed up inside. the complexity of my thoughts is buggin me. maybe i do care. i wanna make a solid decision. maybe i'll be happier to quit? heal my injuries. and not to see sickening faces. and have more time to study. yeah. more time. probably that's good? to my depressing life. but i still miss the good old days. there's just something missing now. maybe i'm thinking too much. but i just don't know why. maybe bball exist very much as an important segment in my life. decisions had to be made.

`i wanna escape from this depressing life.

This morning i woke up late. didn't answer his phone call!!! ahhh!!
TRAGIC.
i wanna see ya. what should i do?
can't reach you ! arghh~!

PON!
first period test period. didn't go for GP lecture.
we spent the time hiding in our ct venue. J3-11. LOL.
and now, never go for history lecture.
later i'm having break. and and.. later on no CLL lesson.
don't know today come school for what.
LOL.
so bored. bored bored bored.
later going home at 1.30.
so early go back also nothing to do.
feel like going swimming. arghh..
i miss you.

i'm thinking of you.
it's raining inside..
probably, there is a barrier.
for me, it's even hard to concentrate on anything else.
maybe maybe.. i'm thinking too much le ba.
too deeply deeply in love with you.
just hope that we can pull through these difficulties together.
i just want a happy you. (:
work hard !
hmmm.. i wanna ask you out to study eh..
but i'm scare you cannot concentrate..
i wanna mug too.. ahhhh.. but when i don't see you, i miss you !

when the rain stops...
can't wait for the rain to stop.
i want my rainbow.

my head almost cracked.
been having period of headaches these few days.
argh~
been waiting for his messages.
he said he's studying.
and he fell asleep. my piggy pig pig boy.
i'm missing you...
and by the way, i've decided to go late for school tomorrow.
that i can skip the test and also GP lesson.
if i wake up late, i may skip econs lecture too. ha.
this will leave me with only chinese and PE lesson to attend.
oh yeah yeah yeah.
and st ask me go study tomorrow. (: mug hard! whoosh!
i'll be waiting.. to see you..

once again. i'm back to blog. haha. haven't been able to come online cause of my sister. LOL. and that someone had been bloggin in place of me. interesting eh. LOVELY.
well.. lots of stuffs happened during these few days.. but i hope these stuffs won't spoil our relationship and would instead strengthen it. =) i enjoy every moment spent with you my boy. i'm so happy to see ya each and every time. i would try to bear with the nonsense that some people enjoy giving us. we'll pull thru all these together yea.

after a long break from school, i'm finally back to class. nothing much had changed but the amount of workload left to complete was terrifying. spent my day trying to clear up homework.. ahhhh~ and worse part is that i just knew today that i had a SEA history test tomorrow. GG man. that means i hav GP and History to complete. and yeah, i still owe that piece of history essay. it's dooms day~

tomorrow- my most hated day of da week. tuesday timetable simply suck for me. hardly have a break. ahhh.. and i owe dozens of homework. dead. dead. so dead. i'm super sleepy now.

but still.. there're happy stuffs to mention. we took loads of photos during the week. (: sweetie~ =p

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so. ''
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said:
"If you get there before I do Don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through; I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see.
And between now and then, until I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, Me."

we will be together and happy ,always =)
dear i'm loving u more and more each day leh..
i dun care, u oso must.. haha lol ..
i will stand on ur side no matter wad happens..
i love ya honey...

and btw, remember ur promise hor.. abt finding the marble..=p
haha i'm serious abt tt.. hmm

k lah i go slp 1st le lah.. still have plenty of chance to blog here..
tmr got to wake up early so can meet u earlier=)
and she's now waiting for my msg to tell her i finished the blog le .. cya soon
Love, me

i am a boy
i am her bf
i am a pig
i am a slping monster
drooling is my hobby
missing stops is my favourite past-time

she 1st noticed me since last year's inter-sch bball matches..
we were together soon after we get together ..
haha its was rather a pleasant surprise for her... lol
she always says that she still could not believe that we are together now!!
hmm.. we will always be together de !!
no worries dear =) love ya!!

signing off, jianming ( her rainbow)

din't sleep last night. out for majong. LOL.
this morning went to Kovan straight.
and my dear boy came !
we ate and slept for awhile.
and we went to Vivo.
we're supposed to catch a movie which we didn't in the end..
hmmm. another day i guess! well.. we had fun walking around.
it doesn't matter where we are, it's who you're with. (:
on the train back. we both fell asleep and we overslept. haha.
funny us.
and then dear went home. tomorrow we're meeting for dinner!
i hope i can meet him earlier lar.. i'm so lonely at home.
even now. no one's home with me..
i think my dear's currently in la la land already~ LOL.
hope to see ya earlier tomorrow!
i'm super super happy today. loving you more and more each day.

hate myself for loving you.
din't know what kinda crap i've done.
fuck life.
if only i could turn back time..

yesterday went to see doc. got a two day mc. and lots of medicine. grrR~ hate them.
my dear boy came over for dinner last night.
and i'm super super happy! (:
feeling so sleepy ah..
after taking the cough syrup..
been sleeping for so long already..
mummy ask me to go Kovan.
but i chose to stay at home.
i lazy to move ah.. i rather slack at home. (:
well. two days of MC meaning, i don't have to go to school this whole week.
planned not to go on wed already.
thur fri are holidays.
hmm hmm.. LOL.
i think i owe a lot of homework.. shall use this time to clear them.. slowly~
hmm.. haven ate breakfast yet..
no appetite too..
maybe i can slim down a lil while i'm sick.
ok lar. fat hope~
i miss my boy!