i told myself to stay strong. i told myself not to shed a tear. i told myself not to show any emotions. but i failed. totally. words hit me, and i crashed. i need someone. but again, maybe i don't know how to love. i'm lousy and i'm not worthy of anyone's love. i'm afraid. i don't know what to do no more. it hurts. i feel like i'm not needed, not love. and yet i'm struggling to keep this love. what am i actually doing? he said i asked too much. i'm losing myself. slowly, i don't know what i want. i don't know who i am. i'm trying so hard to please everyone. i'm trying. i'm really trying. i only showed you my weakest side, and it brought me to a lower point. and sorry that it made you upset, frustrated and annoyed. i'm just not good enough for anything.