life's been quite sad recently. been working working and working. well, i do party at times. had fun. and guess i'm gonna party this wednesday. think i'm gonna club hop around. i had been quite stressed up recently. i really need more care. deep down i yearn for the love. i'm always trying to numb myself. till the extent i felt empty at times. as in seriously, i'm wondering at times, what's the point of life. it seem so difficult to move on further. at times, the sweetness is so seductive, so lethal. that i just fell right back straight. it makes me think sometimes, is it all right to stay like that. should i do something to change my life?

anyway, i've submitted my application for NTU and NUS as well as the MOE teaching application. now, i'm just thinking if i should apply for SIM courses as well just in case. arghhs. do i even have a future? sometimes, i just feel lik wasting my life away. i need to find something meaningful to do.

but for me this instance, i'm down. very down.