Today's thursday. I changed shift with Rose and i'm working in the afternoon. Still half day more to go. It's close to four now, but i'm ending work at nine. Came work today in specs, without makeup, and i think i sure look like a zombie. I didn't have enough sleep. Yesterday, a many years friend came to look for me at Rebel. I'm so so so shocked! Well, he was at St James.. I'm really very happy to see him. =) Had loads of fun last night. Clubbed with Meisui, Shell, Weiling, Julia, Amy(and her bf), and later, Xt and Joc. It's sure a ladies night. Under the music and the lights, i'm so mesmerised. I wanna just party party party. Just dance and move it.

Recently, i'm beginning to see some change. well, it may just be natural that things always change over time. Eternal is not that practical a thing in this world now. I always tried to be optimistic about stuffs but maybe some things just continue to go downhill. No matter how much i tried to grab it, to hold it. Perhaps, it's never meant to be for me. Captivated in my own world, i began to look at things with a different attitude. It sometimes feel like nothing would matter to me, i don't care. But in the end, the one feeling it is me, still the miserable emotional me. I hate myself for being this way. Though i don't show it out to everyone, i am human too. I have my feelings. I know it may not be practical to expect people around me to be sensitive about how i feel, but deep down, i hope that someone understands. Right now, i need a happy pill. Can someone with Mickey mouse ears give me one?