maybe people should just wake up and realise, fairy tales don't exist. and devotion don't mean anything. and words can defeat a person. they're far too powerful. especially if they're said by someone particularly important to you. and yea. it suck. maybe, it's just me. my life suck. maybe sometimes, it's not that good to count on someone, and to turn to anyone. sometimes i just feel better off alone. maybe i won't receive so much more of the negative effects. pain overwhelms. but tears never flow. maybe i'll slowly become numb to everything. and that's what i fear to become. it's difficult to regain hope. once lost, it may never return.