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Monday, July 30, 2007

thoughts lately.

for now. i have several aims to achieve.
(1) *be a great girlfriend. (:
(2) be a good student
(3) full recovery of my ankles. ):

but in order to achieve these, i guess there are definitely sacrifices to be made.
the first thing i would have to leave aside first will be bball ba.
even though i wouldn't wanna do so..
but i guess it's time for me to really get down to study.
and it's a great opportunity for me to rest my ankles.
as for next year, i don't know.
i know i'm being irresponsible for wanting to give up.
but i guess i've got no choice.
pressure and stress can come from everywhere..
the strain i have on myself. the pain. is unknown by others.
the pressure i constantly receive from home - unseen.
the fear i have in myself. the fear of ruining my ankles. impact is for life.
plus the concern of my love ones.
i cannot be so selfish ?
they all care for me too. and i know i should start to take care of myself now.
sorry everyone.. i guess i'll have to leave ballin till things get better.
but well, i'm not exactly very happy in bball trainings.
i don't wanna see the faces of some people. yeah. spoils my mood totally.
still, i don't know if i'll regret this decision. i don't know.
i am unclear of my directions.
probably i'll change my mind? i don't know..
but for now.. i'll have to leave the team.
i don't know if it'll be permanent.
but no worries. i'll try to do whatever i can for the team.
in the meantime, i hope you guys will train real hard.
it's a difficult decision..
then i realised, sometimes in life, you'll have to give up certain things.
if only i don't have any injury..