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Saturday, May 05, 2007
myhappyending?
ending point. lots of problems surfaced after we've started. it wasn't the perfect relationship afterall. we're not suitable i guess. the things i've worried about came true. we're too different. the differences made it very hard for us to carry on. i'm sorry. you should move on. it's not that i don't wanna give you another chance. it'll just be unfair to you if i would have given you the chance. i don't wanna hurt you deeper. probably, we shouldn't have even started. maybe you won't feel the pain in this way? maybe not as much. i'm sorry. it's just me. i'm not good enough. you deserve someone much better than me. i don't wanna hurt you. from the start. that wasn't what i want. maybe the more i don't wanna hurt you, the more terrible i'm gonna feel. i really appreciate the love you've given me. i don't deserve it. i can't let go of the past. it's very unfair to you. move on boy. move on. i'm not the one for you. there's no point to carry on. i really want you to understand. it's not something that compromising will do. it's just me. my fault. maybe when all the problems surfaced, it became so difficult to carry on further. i don't expect you to forgive me. honestly, i rather you hate me for it. maybe that way i'll feel better ba. i'm sorry for being so selfish. i thought i could make you happy. but it didn't work. you're not happy and i'm not too. so i guess this is the best ending for us. i really love you as a friend. but maybe you're just not exactly the one i've been looking for. i'm really sorry. don't wait for me cause i'm not worth the wait. i'm not. forget me please. but we're still friends. and i'll always be here for you. cause you're still important to me. ah shun. i guess sometimes compromising is not everything. maybe sometimes people just don't understand one another? sighs. letting go is hard. sighs. i don't know what to do either. i don't know what to do to not hurt anyone. i feel very bad that i'll have to hurt someone. sighs. why is it so hard to move on.. i feel bad. deep in. filled with guilt. what should i do. forgive me people~ what a fucked up day. sighs. `i still miss you babe. |