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ADELINE's.
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Monday, May 21, 2007
a friend no more.
to that someone who had blogged about me. i have a choice to let people i allow to read my blog. come close to me? you can just talk to me. is it that hard? i rather you talk to me properly than to look at my blog and sort of spy at me. lookin at me from a distance? like as if i hate you so much till you do not dare to come near me? or is it that i'm just too scary. i seriously had enough of these crap. i care for you. yes. i look at your blog too. and i just don't want you to feel sad. that's why i didn't want you to read my blog. understand? why must you make both our lives miserable? this moment. i honestly feel super pissed. i don't know what you want. i freakin hate myself for giving us a chance at that time. it was a terrible mistake that took away our friendship. i never ever thought that you would be this childish. if you love me, why can't you just let me go? i'm so tired of caring for your feelings. whatever i try to do or say, it'll just look as if i'm the one in the wrong. yea. i'm the cause of all your sorrow. yea. so. please. just leave me out of your life. i did not shut you out. you shut yourself all in. you're the one who refuse to be friends. you're the one who refuse to talk. and you think your method of staying away helps? you think i like that stupid method of yours? maybe. maybe i'm selfish to say so. but seriously. i'm too tired to care. i can't be bothered now? you're the one who chose to create a barrier between us. the awkwardness. you're not only shutting yourself in. you're chasing me away. and i'm fucking sure of that. |